Friday, April 30, 2010

Hidupku Sudah Tak Kacau Lagi.

Kamarku... masih.

Thank God, after almost a month of sleeping 1-3 hours per day I can finally reunite and catch up with my 4 buddies : the bed, the pillow, the bolster, and the blanket. And being able to blog again is gwwweeeeeaaaattt.

So here's the summary : I actually started making my image book very early, even much earlier than my classmates, ready to do my best for God, planning the pages, plotting the stories, happily drew pieces by pieces, it was super fun, then things started to go wrong when I started putting colors.

Kyaaaaaa I felt that the colors I put really ruined the whole look - okay, never mind, I printed again, colored again, wrong again, stressed, printed again, put other colors, still looked wrong, frustated, it wasted a lot of time and paint - ruined the schedule - pressed the panic button. God what should I do?

Wahlao. It's me. I was frustrated.
Age : 21
Occupation : Art student
Major : Illustration
But cannot color lehh how ar?

But thank God, one by one, each problem's solved with Divine intervention.

2 Corinthians 12 : 9, But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power my rest on me.

I was then happy with the colors, but I was running out of time - the schedule I made was ancur. I had to finish everything in less than 5 days. In those days I felt like going back to (the difficult times of) foundation year. Langit runtuh. Bumi berhenti berputar. Hokben tetep enak. Hidup kacau.

Nah my poor interior roommate was also having assessment so our room became a complete mess - so messy that we sometimes had to work outside and made it messy too. Sorry yah housemates, hidup kami sedang berantakan. Kamar kami juga. Ga sempet luluran, meni pedi, creambath, apalagi beresin kamar kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Oh our pre- and post- assessment bedroom.

Comfortably ARTISTICally Messy.

Doing black and white was so much easier..
Redrawing Valjean and Javert

the cover in progress

project 2 template..

In the middle of the night, around 3 days before deadline, we really didn't have any second to stop nor energy to go out, but we're starving - thanks God for 24hours McD outlets - we stepped outside for late dinner. Mei also joined the war in our place.

It was fun, we had great laughs, the McNugget student meal with curry sauce was finger-licking (loh?). But I had never felt this uneasy sitting in McD.

We were stressed, depressed, young, pretty, and single.

I seriously didn't know how could this assessment be so stressful, *hmmfh partly blaming the broken printer and the absence of wacom tablet.* Something wrong with the colors, then the scanner, then what? Something wrong with my cutting skill la! Hahahaha.

My craft(wo)manship is (still) lousy. Since kindergarten.

Look at my oh so "happening" desktop. Chaotically full of untitled folders here and there.

Spent literally hours in printing shop. Now that place is kinda traumatizing.

Ow. Kay. Another miracle from God : despite all the problems, it's done, in the dawn - on the set-up day. Only by Your grace, Lord.. only by Your grace..

And what's so good about having a pre-assessment madness? The relief.
What you'll feel after the assessment's over.


Eat, pray, love, sleep, sleep, sleep, SHOP!

Thanks God for the holiday :))))

And now,

Thursday, April 29, 2010



Pray hard for tomorrow. Congrats for nduk assessmentnya sangat gemilanggg yaaaaayyyy belanja belanja.

I have no energy left to type. See you in my dream.

Tuhan tolong..

Friday, April 16, 2010

I Thought I was Done with All Things Parisian.

Tired after 'flying' back to Paris for the Les Mis template. But I was so happy to be back there hahahahah.

Oh a verse God wants me to share today, from Isaiah 54 : 10

Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,"
says the LORD, who has compassion on you.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Cursing the School.

In these times especially, when the assessment, or more widely known as ASSessment is around the corner, Lasalle students tend to curse the institute. On facebook. Daily life. In their heads.

Err - first it doesn't help and second it'll actually make things worse. Harmful for the mind and suicidal for the passion.

Entering this huge black box was our choice and we knew the consequences. To start and to survive, we gotta have the passion - the L.O.V.E. 'Interests' and skills aren't enough.

The amount of hard works, the deadlines, and even the lecturers' comments might 'injure' it. And saying the word HATE might just 'murder' it. Hang in there guys - don't make things worse.

It won't happen if the passion is - strong enough. I know a friend that will never curse Lasalle no matter what. Because the passion is too strong to kill. This person does these things with love - joyfully. You can see the difference between the 'negatives' and the ones who smile.

Be careful of what we say.

The tongue has the power of life and death,
and those who love it will eat its fruit.
Proverbs 18 : 21

And more importantly,

Whatever you do, do it with all your heart,
as working for the Lord, not for men,
Colossians 3 : 23

And when we feel hopeless - "so little time so much to do and don't even know where to start - STUCK,". We've all been there right? :) Don't SAY things that will screw things up. Instead, just believe.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Philippians 4 : 13

I understand how Lasalle makes us cry and the lecturers drive us crazy. Sometimes I wanna slap them too huahahah. But we'd like to survive and win - not the other way around :) Let's learn together.

P.S I hope they'll let us go home before diploma show huahahah hey you guys we miss home! I'll try not to slap.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Paint! Paint! Paint!

And here's the story.

"You Better Sing Your Heart Out"
~ An instruction manual on how to get those melodies outta your mouth. Out of your heart. ~

First of all, get yourself alone. Get away from the crowd, especially from the singers.

If necessary, break all the mirrors around you.

Do some stretching. Relax your mind, body, and soul. Just forget yourself.

Grab anything as the microphone. And just start. Listen to your own voice,
and no matter how it may sound, don't stop.

Get the soul. Sing from the heart.

You'll soon find that singing is something very...

Your voice will flow like a calm river. Okay you might hear some splashes.

Now that you get the feel. You can find other books
on the technical parts.

And oh.
You might wanna consider buying a new mirror?

Sunday, April 11, 2010

While the Machine was Away.

When my blackbaby was in Apple hospital I was 'a little' paralyzed. My roommate lent me hers sometimes to check things up but of course I couldn't use it all the time. The nights became traumatic since when I didn't know what to do, homesickness tends to attack.

I had a very bad flu during those days - now I kinda know why. So I had the power to sleep and kill the time and homesickness by dreaming hahahah I was amazed at how long I could sleep in a day. Credit to the drowsy medicines!

Never thought my iPod would be so useful during "hard times". See how I used to perceive it huahahah. Thanks God :) And nduk thanks for the tiny yet tremendously functional iPod charger hihiy.

One night I put my iPod on and played bed time songs. It helps most of the time - makes me sleep faster, but sometimes I unintentionally listen to the lyrics and can't stop thinking about them hence I can't fall asleep.

That's what happened when I decided to play my Bread playlist. Ah their lyrics are honest, descriptive, flowing, beautiful, and grammatically incorrect, sometimes.

London Bridge, Diary, Aubrey, Never Let Her Go (love love love this), If, and so on - couldn't fall asleep. And God told me to listen to the last song of the night, a song that calmed my troubled mind.

"...He shielded him and cared for him ; He guarded him as the apple of His eye,"
Deuteronomy 32 : 10.

He's always right, every little thing's gonna be alright. My blackbaby's back with a lesson : a laptop can't be the center of one's life. Only God can handle the role victoriously.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Cute Quote Before Bed

I don't kill flies but I like to mess with their minds. I hold them above globes. They freak out and yell, 'Whoa, I'm way too high!'" ~Bruce Baum~

Friday, April 9, 2010

Now They're Kinda Green

The second one is what I see everytime I wake up in Jakarta.

I love windows. Especially when they're showcasing beauty and complexity.
Especially when they're big and clean. Flat HD screen.
Especially the ones with motions.
Especially the ones triggering emotions.

Literally, not that windows.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

When They're Kinda Brown

That feeling. Sentimental. Nostalgic.
As the result of the insufficiency of light - and the sense of home.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Praise the Lord, My BlackBaby is Back!

Almost a week ago, I experienced the so-called "design student unexpected nightmare" - my laptop crashed. I was terrified when it didn't start. I was speechless - when they told me they couldn't save the data.

But when I was trying to digest everything, I realized, what I should say to God about it was : Thank You. And thank You. And thank You, and the peace of the Lord calmed my heart and mind.

Discoveries after discoveries, thoughts after thoughts, they all filled me with awe, of how good You are to me.

  • Thank You Lord, after 3 good years of problem-free usage, it was actually the right time for the laptop to act up.
    It happened right after the vital digital submissions and long before assessment.
    And it happened on Thursday, literally the end of school week, I had no class on Monday so the laptop was repaired on 'weekends' :)
  • Thank You Lord, now I know why I thought the portfolio website was due a week ago. It's actually due 2 weeks after that!
    I thought why in the world I bothered to finish that project in the midst of other deadlines? I did it and I saved it in my flash disk. Remembering how gaptek I am, imagine how panic I would be if I didn't do such thing and my laptop crashed. And if didn't do so, I wouldn't be able to do anything because the files required for that project are all gone!
  • Thank You Lord, the important school projects are surprisingly saved!
    I was devastated at first thinking about the data loss, but when I checked what's left on my flash disk : I FOUND EVERYTHING.
  • Thank You Lord, both of my projects for this semester are not in digital form :)
  • Thank You Lord, for this blog, for facebook, and even friendster!
    Thank God I blog. Thank God I upload photos. I thought I lost some memorable photos and I was surprised I found them on facebook haha. I actually didn't understand why I put some weird and random photos in my albums, now I know why : because You know my heart would break if those weirds (yet precious) photos are gone. And I thank God I didn't erase those photos from my camera.
  • ThanksYou Lord, now I know why I had the thought of printing those images for CPJ, when it's due at the end of the semester-
  • Thank You Lord, now I know why I'm never a 'high-res' freak, although I'm a design student!
  • Thank You Lord for my iPod (so it's not for homeworks and treadmill purposes only :), and for senuti. Hahahah.
  • Thanks God it's the HD not the motherboard.
  • Thank You Lord, my laptop was under-construction for 3 working days only - and I got to take it back in Wheelock and not Funan. I rushed from school today on 7:30 and amazingly could reach the service counter on 8. My laptop was actually out of warranty - 3 years duh - , but
  • Thanks You Lord, it's repaired for free! I was supposed to pay about $120++ but my err.. something like reparation extension program- was approved by Apple.
  • Thank You Lord, I let the Tiger go, it returned as a Leopard! I said goodbye to a dirty and scratchy laptop - I got a smooth - silky- and velvety one back.
  • Thank You Lord, for my supporting, caring, loving, and understanding parents :)
  • Thank You Lord, You give me Nduk's and Yanika's helping hands while the laptop's far away. Nduk you may have a Blackberry, I have a Blackbebby. Hahahahahah. Sengkyu yahh!
  • Thank You Lord, for this great joy - my black baby is back!
Within those laptopless days, God gave me so many things. Rasanya kayak Tuhan mo hibur gw dengan berkat-berkatNya sampe gw merasa laptop gw rusak ini malah mendatangkan lebih banyak berkat, bukan kerugian - malah keuntungan. Dan buktinya, laptop gw balik, bahkan lebih ganteng dari sebelumnya huahahahah.

I learned once again, to rely 100% on God, that He doesn't disappoints, He answers prayers, everything happens for a reason, and with God, every little thing's gonna be alright.

And we'll see, His plans are perfect.

~ God is good, all the time. And all the time, God is good. ~